A year ago today I mailed a check that would change our entire year.
A year ago today we applied to the NEDC and began the wait and paperwork to eventually bring us to meet our embryos.
A year ago today we were scared, yet excited.
A year ago R lost his job.
A year ago we stepped out in faith and hope for the future.
Amazing what year can bring. How slow and how fast it has gone all at the same time.
This year looks so different, but in many ways the same. We still have empty arms, yet we are not alone. We are still scared of the future, yet continue to walk this road, however hard and long it may be. God hasn't left us, despite the loneliness that we often feel. He hasn't left you, the other couples I know are still out there, like us...waiting. Don't let despair take over completely. Allow the grieving, and allow the healing as well.
"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. "The Lord is my portion, " says my soul, "therefore I will hope in him" The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. Lamentations 3:22-25