One day at a time. Just one day at a time is how I made it through those early days of pregnancy. Not only the tough "morning" sickness moments, but the thoughts and fears that so many of us can have while trusting God to protect the little life He created.
Then the weight gain and physical changes start adding to the other discomforts and little by little I realize I actually am pregnant....ME, pregnant with a growing baby! It really has been so incredibly surreal, from joining a prenatal yoga group and feeling like some sort of "cheater" who is just pretending to be pregnant (I know, I'm crazy!) to getting advice from friends on various issues related to pregnancy and labor.
After living so long with watching life seem to pass us by as others grew their families and then the whirlwind of infertility, RE treatments and then embryo adoption we started to wonder if we would ever know the journey of parenthood personally.
I am now in the second trimester and have a visible "bump" and I honestly don't want it to go any faster...I want to cherish this time and never forget it. I want to feel this little on kicking around inside and just soak it all up. A dream, a hope...a gift.
My heart is full of so many emotions and memories from the past year. I still follow my friends on the embryo adoption/donation support fb page and through their blogs. The girls from my first mini-support group as we embarked on our first transfer have all delivered their precious bundles and I am beyond thrilled for them! I have other ttc sweet friends who are still in the trenches of infertility and treatment, and who are waiting. I am continually praying for them.
So very thankful and humbled to be where we are, yet know that God is not done writing our story. He will continue to stretch our faith and draw us to Himself as we embark on another journey...parenthood.