When we first decided that we wanted to really try hard to start a family larger than just the two of us we had no idea the challenges that lay ahead. 2011 was the year and as we stepped into the RE doctor's office we still had no idea of how hard this journey really would be.
After having numerous tests done for both of us, and some really scary ones for me all the results came back negative and we were given the (to be honest) dreadful title: "unexplained infertility." We discuss treatment options once again with Dr. C and decided to wait and be sure we had all the money we needed and work towards refinancing our home.
About 6 months later or so we successfully refinanced and despite a very stressful summer for me with my childcare we were ready to start the treatment. To our shock and surprise right before I was supposed to start the medication we found out I was actually pregnant. Only a week or so later I lost the baby at around 6 weeks. Our faith was tested to the max as we struggled to get through that dark time. Eventually time healed the sharpness of the pain though the hole left in our hearts may never close entirely.
We decided to return to Dr. C's office again and pursue treatment but after 5 cycles of it I had enough and felt more discouraged than ever. We took a "break" if you will from pursuing anything super concrete to help us conceive and I focused on getting as healthy as possible and just learning to enjoy life and grow in our relationship with each other and God.
Winter of 2014 found us beginning to hope again as we researched the option of adopting a donated embryo. We were drawn to the NEDC in TN and have been pursuing this dream once again. I will write more about this soon!