It still doesn't feel quite real. The fact that in less than two weeks we will be once again transferring embryos into my body in Tennessee.
The med protocol has gone by pretty fast actually, I'm sure due in part to the holidays and keeping so busy. I made it to my first lab/ultrasound check right before Christmas and had an endometrial biopsy done as well. This was something I asked my doctor to let me try as I've heard it can help with FETs sometimes. They basically "rough up" the tissue to help promote healing or something like that. I am willing to do whatever it takes to help these next embies stick around longer.
I'm not loving all the side effects of the meds, but they are bearable and as I did my last Lupron shot (in the stomach) I felt kind of bummed since it means the next big change is coming up, a much worse kind of shot...the PIO. :(
Emotionally we are feeling pretty drained. Our finances are dropping lower and our thoughts are tired of thinking. If only there was some way to know the future, or to have more answers to our questions.
We just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and make it through. We can do hard things, I know we can. I am trying to get myself back to the yoga mat so I can stay physically strong and also help my mind to move forward. I created a space for that in the basement as well as a little nook in my closet (ha!) for quiet time with God. I just need desperately to recharge when I can, disconnect from internet chatter and research and remember what really matters.
12 more days. I can't wait to meet you little ones....our precious snowflakes waiting for a chance to live and grow.